Im not scared of dieing is that a bad thing?

ive been depressed for a while now and lately i have not been afraid of dieing when i see a car drive by im tempted to walk in front of it,when im upstairs i wanna jump off,when i take a aspirin im tempted to chug a lug the whole bottle.all these thing seem fun to me really fun like i just wanna do it.im on medication for depression but i rarely take them and either way i wanna do things that could hurt me.one because im not afraid to die i wanna no what happens,i have nothing to live for,life is boring,i just wanna do thing people are usually afraid of.what do i do what wrong with me im only 16?