Doctor doesnt understand and thinks she knows best!!!?

wow, and a psychiatrist doesn't see what is happening here? have you seen a psychiatrist? because your angry episodes sound like hyper mania a condition ociated with bipolar disorder. you don't need a tranquilizer you need a mood stabilizer, there are a number of them to choose from, so if one doesn't help you another likely will. Talk to a psychiatrist, if you already have one see another for a second opinion and discuss bipolar disorder.